Is it difficult to grow thinner?

Life seemed perfect when I was 16. Everything was just right, me including. Once I’ve noticed that other girls were a success with our classmates one of whom I really liked since 1-st signs of sexuality were awaking in all of us. The boys were attracted to me too but more in a friend-like way! Only then I came to realize I wasn’t that perfect. So I arranged myself a critical session with the mirror and I saw clearly: there was something in me that needed a significant change. Appearance? – Somebody would ask, - Wrong answer! The first step was to change my mentality.

I did, and in accordance with my new critical self I came to hate myself. You know, it’s very motivating, but the point is not to let yourself lapse into depression which doesn’t help. You need to get mad at yourself to the extent that you want to move. So, I cut down my daily ration, especially on junk food, soda and sweets, and enlarged the portion of physical activity, doing aerobics for instance.

Sounds OK, huh? Sorry to disappoint you, it wasn’t. It’s terribly difficult to survive, having only one substantial meal a day-breakfast. At lunch I only had time to eat some salad, as it was forbidden to eat 3 hours before my aerobics –class, and an apple for supper, as I was too tired to ear.

One week of tortures, and I got first results. It was the best reward for me, it prevented me from doing wrong! The best feeling in the world is to feel your body melting!!! When you do to buy some clothes, show the salesman an item you like, smiling apologetically because of being sure it would be small, and he looks at you surprised, and offers you to try on even smaller item! Plus, I was proud of myself because I managed to do it.

Just for your information, as I was getting slimmer, I realized a lot more, so by the time the boy I liked came up to me, I was ready to cut him short.